The Scarf

I sit here this morning with my friend B and she brought over a bunch of yarn and gizmos to help you knit.. so as I sit here I am knitting my first scarf for my son. I admit, not my first choice of crafts and I do not see myself knitting on a regular basis. However so see the scarf forming before my eyes is a sense of accomplishment. I am very proud of myself. Pics to come.

I am a Mother, I am a creator.

As I sit here playing with my son and the DCkid today, I have been watching the movie "Julie & Julia". I have to say this movie has so far brought out allot in me. I came to realize that I am a creator. I love to cook and come up with my own recipes. I try to find new ways to make traditional foods healthy and healthy foods tasty. I often make one and an impressed with myself and find myself thinking of how I can share it with other people. Or wondering if I should sell my latest batch of homemade incense so that others can enjoy it too who are not as able as I to make such wonderful scents. I think that in my daily routines as a mother, I have forgotten how much of a creator I am. I am always making something, be it food, incense or a piece of art, I am creating. I think it is time for me to embrace more of this side of myself and expand. I have so many things I can share with people in this glorious gift called life. Well here is to creation.. I am thinking you will all start to see some of my creations here more often!

A moment of me time reflection..

I am sitting here tired as anything.. with a major hangover.. my son is cranky and I am trying to hold him off for a nap until after lunch (which is cooking and has about 20 minutes left to go) so that I may be able to take a nap too. The whining from him is just going on and on and on. He keeps stealing blankets and hiding away to suck his thumb (that worries me.. I know I am going to have a had time in a year or so when I try to break this habit).. I should be getting up to go stir the potatoes in the oven.. but this hang over is taking a huge effect on my brain. Is it 1pm yet??

Just want to share

this is a great little blog post and it is simple yet very very true.
http://fansofbeingamom.com/?cat=28

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Seeking new sites

Despite my rather bleak outlook towards the pagan online community in general, I have joined two new pagan networking sites. Ya.. fun stuff. So.. am I the only one who wonders about the people who send you a friend invite the moment you have created your account? I think this is a Jersey thing.. but the words "I DON"T KNOW YOU" with a bit of sass just fly through my head. I know they are just trying to be friendly and meet new people.. but honestly, these people have NO CLUE how much of an asshole I can be when I can anonymously post my thoughts on the internet. Its like a ninja, who is only bad ass at night when he has his kick butt ninja outfit on. Or me when I would have my steel toed combat boots on... I didn't care who I kicked in the shins! I had to give those bad boys away after getting into trouble a few times in concert mosh pits. But in all honesty. Don't people want to get a better feel of you before inviting? at least have a profile ready to go and up? Am I the only one who reads a persons entire profile before I click "accept"?

One off my list

As I quit all of my apps yesterday.. (thank you Rusty for the push and telling me just to do it!!) I started sketching again last night.. nothing really meaningful yet.. but I have a new drawing in the works.. It makes me feel sooo good to do this.. I am aching to go get my drawing materials from my craft room in the basement and start working on my newest creation! here is to the first step!

And "Light a Candle" strikes again..

So I posted on a new pagan forum yesterday about how I was feeling about Haiti and felt helpless.. just to feel this group out. Well.. wouldn't you know I was told to light a candle yet again. I am beginning to think that 'lighting a candle" is the only thing these dumb ass net pagans know how to do. Give me something different please.. how about a "dance naked" or "cook a stew" but please stop saying "light a candle".. unless it is a Roman candle.

The "Apps" wasteland...

For the 100th time today I found myself having to delete another smiley and angel from my facebook page... I got sick of it and posted a biter remark about having to delete them.. and my good.. well more like Great (since it rhymes.. I love a good rhyme) friend Nate said in response, that I should go through and clean out my apps. Well.. what a fricken eye opener!!! 193 apps.. holy fricken cow!!! that is allot of time I have wasted on quizzes and games! 965 minutes alone if I spent just 5 minutes with every App. Not including the countless hours on MafiaWars and other crap games like farmtown. Just think of everything I could be doing instead! Like exercising more.. working with my son on learning new tricks.. the list can go on and on here..

I need to stop.. I need to rethink my life. Today I am spending time deleting the majority of these apps from my facebook account.. I am hoping that I get the balls to delete the ones that have taken the most time out of my life.. we will see how that goes!

And so it is January...

Cold..grey...cabin feverish.. January. Not my favorite month.. I am already getting the urge to get out side and sit on my back porch with a camp fire going with a cup of coffee in one hand and a book in the other.. ahh now that sounds like heaven! I guess that is a good sign though.. because that means I am craving some me time! I can't wait till my son gets to an age where I can let him play outside and not have to chase him around pulling things like acorns and twigs out of his mouth.

I have my altar set up down stairs... and a few changes made to a room that was an attempted library back in the 70's.. but the spring green paint on the walls needs to go...and the pile of trash in the center of the room from all the demo I did to the room needs to go too.. and a few boxes that need to be organized.. It will be a great room.. but DANG if I had the energy.. I think this weather is just sucking it out of me!

It has been below zero for at least 3 weeks now.. we are supposed to move up to the 30's this week.. I am hoping that changes my mood a bit..

I have been doing something positive though... I have been doing yoga..and I feel physically great.. I have lost 7 pounds in the last 2 weeks.. go me! However I have not been able to bring myself to post or barely even stalk a pagan message board... I swear if I hear the term "light a candle" anytime soon I will be mentally shoving that candle up thier ass!