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Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I FAILED My Own Challenge...

A few months back I issued a challenge and I failed my own challenge. I fully planned to take this on wholeheartedly, but I must admit I did not force myself to do this. I planned on trying to be an eclectic pagan for 30 days and following the basics of that path. I posted on one of the forums I frequent, looking for suggestions and the basic response was, "Well, solitary eclectics get to do what ever they want so just go with what ever feels right". Well that was where I hit my problem.. my path already was what feels right. So I decided that I would go to my book shelf and pick out the first two books that called to me that I hadn't read in a while. So I picked up a book on shamanic healing that was loaned to me by a friend that I never looked at, and a book and cards kit on goddesses. I figured I would get familiar with both and then put together a shamanic goddess ritual for the next full moon. Well I tried..I picked up both and flipped through them several times. I tried to sit down and read them both. The problem was drive, I had no ambition to actually sit down and take time out of my day to read them. So there on my shelf by my bed the books sat. I would glance over at them saying to myself "I need to read those" but it just didn't happen.

My conclusions to this is that Solitary Eclectic was a bad choice on my part..I should have gone with something like Celtic Reconstructionism, Dianic or Buddhism, but Solitary Eclectic was way too broad. In the end we all follow what feels right to us, regardless if it has a certain structure or is a grab bag of ideas... If we didn't, we wouldn't follow it at all.

3 comments:

Rusty Sullivan said...

So, in other words, you just couldn't be fluffy...even for a month?

Witchy Wyllow said...

I remember that. I thought that you kind of chickened out, but after I went back and read more of your posts I realized why it was so difficult for you. Sometimes I feel "wrong" for calling myself Eclectic, because I lean more towards Dianic and Hellenic Recon, but because it's not one strict path that I follow, I settle on Eclectic. I admire you for trying at all, though. I think maybe this would be a good idea for the P&P group. Challenge everyone to try to follow a different path for one month... What do you think? By the way, thanks for following me! I had no idea that was you until I came to your blog lol.

Jasmine said...

maybe it is a good idea... You should suggest it!