Yes that is right....bleach! After being married to a video game addict for 6 years and together for 7, I have decided that there is nothing more annoying, boring or more hurtful. See, my soon to be ex-husband did not cheat with a person, he did not find himself in the arms of another woman, but he gave his mind, body and soul to a machine. This machine was not even a hot Cylon in a red dress like in Battle Star Galactica. See, that I might understand because Tricia Helfer played a gorgeous bionic robot with a very sensual attitude (pictured at right). Instead, he spent every hour that he was not sleeping or at work living in front of a TV and emerging himself into a world that doesn't exist to "save the world" from pretend Nazi's or zombies or what ever lame ass bad guy was put in front of him. While I do feel that some form of mindless activity now and then is normal and healthy for all humans, spending the majority of your free time doing this is not. I also do not claim to be perfect in this aspect myself as I enjoy watching my hour of TV a day, as well as spending time online chatting with my friends.
I too am a recovering video game addict. I say recovering because anyone who knows anything about addiction, knows that it never really goes away permanently, it is something we learn to control in our lives. I currently do not play any video games, minus occasionally playing Words With Friends with my mother and a few other select friends. I only spend about 10 minutes a day playing this game, which I only do to keep my vocabulary growth going. When I was in full addict mode, I would spend up to 16 hours a day playing MMORPGs such as Everquest, Dark Age of Camelot, DDO and more. I also was quite into the SIMS for a while. I also got addicted for a while to social media games such as MafiaWars and FarmTown. At my peak, I would spend every waking hour playing games. It was impossible to get me out of the house, I would call out of work and try to get out early when I did go. I also neglected my college work which eventually caused me to have a GPA that was too low to get the financial aid I needed to continue. A combo of not having aid, and not making enough money at work eventually caused me to have to give up my apartment and go live with a friend who charged me significantly less rent. I also played so much at that time that my fiance at the time couldn't take it any longer and we started fighting about it. I would not help him clean the apartment, nor spend time with him outside of the game. Eventually he found himself cheating on me, which caused us to part ways. While cheating on me was not the correct way to handle this, my addiction made me not care about our actual relationship and giving to it what I needed for us both to be in a healthy place. Needless to say, video games had a strong place in my life at one point and I totally understand the addiction.
When my soon to be ex-husband and I started dating, we were both in the middle of video game addiction. We would spend hours playing together and this was how we met. We played the same games and were online friends for years together before ever meeting face to face. One day we did meet and that is what started our life together. When we started living together we enabled the behaviors that go with gaming addiction. Instead of a normal new couple that spends hours in the bedroom mating like bunnies, we spent hours in front of our computers side by side playing video games. Eventually the neglected living conditions we lived in started to take over. It was also around this time that we married. We got a bigger place and new wedding gifts that caught my attention more than the video games. The idea of starting a life together sunk in to me. By the time I was pregnant I had started losing interest in games all together. Once my son was born I had stopped playing them completely. One day it just clicked in me that sitting there in front of the screen was a waste of time in my life and there were more important things to do than to live in this fantasy world. However, my soon to be ex-husband did not loose interest. His interest went from the games we played together to games he played by himself on his xbox. He continued to play and play.
First it was nice to sit there and encourage him to play and wow could he do amazing jumps on that video game where he snow boards. And wow that dragon is awesome, how cool of you to be able to kill it and make armor with its scales. I would sit and watch him. At first I was okay with it because I knew it made him happy. But I was starting to get lonely. As our son grew I spent more time with the little man than my partner. Our time together became less and less. When I was not taking care of my son I would be busy cleaning and taking care of the home or spending time doing other things. All the while, he continued to play and play. We then bought our first house together, which I was so happy about at the time. Looking back on this though, I know now that this was the beginning of the end of our marriage. We had gone from apartment living, where all major maintenance was taken care of, no grass to cut and just the dishes and our son to take care of, to caring for a house all on our own. I never even considered at that time that he would neglect our son, me and our new home. Then the begging came along. I would clean the kitchen and ask him to mow the lawn, or help with something in the house. Everything I asked him to do bothered him and if he spent 10 minutes away from his game to help me, he was doing everything in the house and I was lazy. If I sat down and had time to myself on a weekend, in his mind I was doing the same thing he was with his video games. Soon it became very clear through action, despite what he said, that video games were the most important aspect of his life. No matter what I did, nor the love of his son, would bring him back to us or away from this machine.
Then I stopped watching, even if he begged me. I would do my own things, such as watch documentaries, and eventually I started going out with my friends all the time. It got to a point where we never spent any alone time together, including sex. Our relationship became nothing but roommates and occasional help with parenting. We were no longer a team or a partnership. He had choose to live his life in this fantasy world of death and carnage, and I had choose to move on. I secretly hoped he would just get bored and come back to us. But I knew deep down it would never happen. Towards the end I began to equate him to a child and lost all respect for him. I could no longer live this way. The saddest part in my mind is that our son would only call him by his first name for the longest time, and would go to the door to the basement and yell it. This he learned from me unfortunately. I had to go to the door whenever food was ready, or whenever I needed him for a second, or just to see him come out of the cave and yell his name as loud as I could just to get him to come up. It took nearly 2 years for our son to call him Daddy again.
Needless to say, now that I am done with this marriage, I am done with this part of my life that involves seeing people play video games. I never want to watch people play and I would rather avoid hearing people discuss them. It is now on my bucket list to never see them played again and I plan on sticking to that. In my life I no longer have room for people who think its okay to bury themselves in a world of escapism and ignore real life. Video games are not real and the addiction to them is just as serious as alcohol or drugs. Instead of killing your liver you kill your soul, and get fat from lack of exercise and consuming inordinate amounts of Dew and not getting enough sunshine or vitamin D. I feel as that the neglect from his lifestyle choices was abuse towards me and my son, and I will never go back to that. In the end bleach in my eyes would be far less painful and far more enjoyable.
So for those of you who do play video games, please consider what you are doing to those around you. Think about the things you could be doing instead; like yoga, reading a book, learning to play the Cello, loving your family, or changing the world one person or tree at a time. There are so many things you could do instead of wasting your life in front of a screen and if you stop and pay attention to the world around you, you will realize that you are ultimately wasting your life away. Every moment counts and there is a real world out there just waiting to be explored. Don't waste it.